Never felt so down. SO SAD. SO DEPRESSED. SO STRESSED. SO PRESSURED. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to cry but knowing that I don't have anyone to lean on to makes me feel a hundred times sadder than the usual. I've been praying so hard and I'm really hoping that God won't give up on me.

Labels: help me Lord, Oh Lord

"Seeing the person you like, liking/loving someone else"

What hurts the most? =_= Seeing the person you like, liking/loving someone else, and that someone else is a friend of yours.

No, I don't hate my friend AT ALL. I love her so much because she's my friend. B-but what hurts? I like the person who likes her. I mean, it really is hurting me THIS much. I don't even know what to do. I don't want to share HOW it hurts me. And guess what? THAT crush of mine (james reid-look-a-like) and I are actually texting each other because we're friends! :| Yes, he's kind-of close to me now. And it's because of my friend. /Sigh. Life. Whyyyy always like this?

Oh well. I should understand what life is shoving me. All I have to do is to receive it with all my heart. I may be stupid because I'm helping him, but Yeah, I just want him to be happy, like that.

call me anything or everything you want~ at the end of the day, I'm always on the right track. I may fail? but that doesn't mean I won't stand up. It may hurt me as hell, but FUCK YEAAAAH, This won't take long~

xx A.

Labels: am i crazy or falling in love or is it really just another crush?, help me Lord, in love or crush?, love psh love, personal

What would you do if you found out that you have this "TRUSTED" friend but then she/he betrayed you or something? .-.

I mean, for others, it isn't a big deal because maybe MOST of the people here on earth doesn't have real friends, or maybe they're used to it. In my case, I've trusted a lot of people yet I know who REALLY are true and at the same time, MOST of them are faking it. Yes, I can say that I'm lucky enough to have those "REAL" ones, but am I luck enough to have those fake ones too? or should I say that I'm not? :|

It's hard on my part when I know that I'm in the middle of it. I don't know which side/s to take, so I decided to be neutral yet, it's just not right when you're neutral and you know that the other side has done something really, really fucked up or something NOT right, right? :|

Even those cards or whatsoever can NEVER tell it right. I don't know, at this time, I think God can explain. I mean, it's all up to him.

I'm just hurt, maybe I'm not the person who got bitched up or something yet, the one who got bitched up is my friend too and we don't know what to believe in anymore!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Okay, Okay, I must leave this problem to God now. I've had enough. I mean, I've been on both sides, on one side and this time, I bet that God's with me and I bet that this thing is part of my life, part of the challenge that I'm supposed to surrender to God. God, help me choose the right PERSONS. Give me more strength, patience, open mindedness all over! Thanks!

xx; Armi ♥

Labels: college life, friends or foes, help me Lord, LEAD ME TO THE RIGHT PATH, this is such of a lemon but i don't care

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