Honestly, I've been through a lot of hardships and it made me stronger but sometimes I have this feeling of giving up. Sometimes I feel like grabbing God's hands and I want him to lift me higher :( Sometimes I just want to weep. I really don't know what to do. I really, really don't know what to do. 

And also, the moment when other people who doesn't even know you well, mistook your facial expressions. The moment when you're just too scared and you just want to defend someone but - some would prolly took it the wrong way. The moment when you just don't know the words that would come out of your mouth because you just want to defend someone - but still took it the wrong way. I just don't know what to do anymore. It breaks my heart.

I admit, I have my own faults. I felt sorry about it. I should be more extra careful, especially with the words I say. I should be more obedient enough too. 

Oh Lord, I will just surrender everything to you. I hope you're listening right now. I hope you're still guiding me. I hope you're still there. I hope you'd help me up. I hope you're not tired of helping me out. :( Please Oh Lord. Be my strength. 

Xx; A.