"Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking, and I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me? I don't know what to say since a twist of fate when it all broke down and the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now."

I'm sad right now. Never realized that it would be this hard. It's so hard to move on, especially when it's the first day of being SINGLE, right? :( Now, I know the feeling, Now, I understand those people who just had their break ups. I'm sad because yesternight, I was able to sleep early, maybe because there's no reason to sleep late for and maybe because I have nothing to do anymore. I slept at around 830-840PM and then I woke up at around 11PM, I realized that I can't breathe. I kept on checking my phone. And there, I slept again, and woke up at around 3AM. Checked my phone again and realized that I'm crying. :(((((((((((((( Seriously, I'm sad. I wanted to tell my Mom that my heart beats getting faster. Sorry, but I'm really like that. I'm not that strong YET. I really want to overcome this problem of mine. I kept on crying. I told my other friends about this. I'm pretending to be strong whenever they ask me if I'm alright. I wanna tell them that I AM NOT, but I know that they will never understand me. I know that MOST of them will tell me that I'm just over reacting. They will just tell me that "HE'S NOT THE ONLY GUY IN THIS FUCKING BIG WORLD", but come on! :( I know, he's not the only guy here, I know that there are still A LOT of them out there, but we'vebeen together, I just miss the feeling. :(

I was afraid this time would come, I wasn't prepared to face this kind of hurting from with in. I have learned to live my life beside you. - this line made me cry so hard awhile ago. My friend was singing this earlier this afternoon, I can't help but cry. :'(

Some of my friends told me that HE STILL LOVES ME but there's lacking. I really don't mind, I just want to be friends with him, Okay? :( I'm not asking for more. We started as friends and I wanted to end it with him as friends again :/ I don't want him to be bitter. I don't want myself to be bitter.

Ugh, life. This is hurtful. Sorry if I keep on emoting online. ONLINE helps a lot.

xx

Labels: armi, life, when life gives you lemons

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