I've been too busy with school and I don't know if I should continue. I mean, I'm still on the first stage and the fact that I'm still a first year college student makes me want to quit it. I still don't know what COLLEGE LIFE is...... yet, but I'm on the verge of giving up. You may say that I have a weak feelings, sensitive and all that but I know what I'm saying.

College, surprisingly, SURPRISED me. The school that I actually entered was beyond my expectation. I thought, at first, that it's way too different than the other colleges/universities here in Davao, but yeah, again, it failed my expectations. It's more likely ONE of the WORSTS! Sorry to say thatttt, I love my college school but most of the things that are IN it are just cruel, fail or all that negatives are inserted! I may be wrong at the moment, but I'm just saying that my first experience was a faiiiiil.

Anyway, have I mentioned that I'm tiiiiired so freaking bad?
Things I've done this week and since the start of October.

✖ been too busy during the Intramural. wasn't able to join any activities, but for me I was too busy. MAYBE because I haven't had a long time of rest! it was one of the best intramural event I've ever had but yet it was half-boring. b-but yeah, intramural, thaaaat is.

✖ projects/reports, so on and so forth. Hey, it's a SCHOOL. what do you know about it? YEAH YEAH, it's all about BOOKS, REPORTS, PROFESSORS, STUDENTS (and mostly, students who are so into studying), FRIENDS, CRUSH and yes, critics!

speaking of REPORTS? My Filipino and Zoology reports are still in line. Wish me luck, gossssssh.

✖ FIELD DEMONSTRATION. one of the most tiring everrrr. but guess what? instructions were given to our section a month before the exact date, but - you know what my section/classmates are, right? we only had a ONE DAY practice and yet, we still get to managed to perform infront of 1O+ sections.

*field demo* It's funny that my crush's course had the same schedule with us to perform (we're scheduled to perform on the afternoon) and what made me nervous? seeing him watching in front of us. THAT MADE ME REALLY ANXIOUS AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY. and the bad thing about that? one of props that I made (and I actually put it down so that after, I'd be able to grab it like that) was gone. YES. that means, I'm the only person who isn't using anything during the presentation (not all the time during the presentation though) and guess what? I ACCIDENTALLY SAID SOMETHING BAD, so I don't knoooow. I really felt embarrassed, but oh well, AFTER all, I had so much fun and I was happy.

Enough of that. Now you know how TIRED I am. It may not be THIS hard, but yes, FOR ME it is! :|

Hopefully, someone will force me or just motivate me. Help me. I need motivation!

That's all for now *u*

xx; A.

Labels: armi, college, life is giving me something epic that i don't know if i could even handle it, personal, weird things in college

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